Self-depreciating thoughts and how to deal with it.

I sometimes find myself shooting down my own ego and self-esteem. We all struggle with it, I dont know if I'm the only Christian who went through this type of expectation, but I feel like I'm expected to not go through depressing moments or entertain things like self depreciating thoughts. Like I should be perfect or know my worth as a Christian, which makes sense becuase God says we are wonderfully and fearfully made, He calls us His masterpiece, why would we still demean ourselves if God calls us such wonderful words.

There are ways to start believing God's truth about you and not the self-depreciating thoughts that come our way. Here are a few ways you can make that happen:

1) Figure out the roots:

I love this step because it makes so much sense. Figuring out the root of something can really help you understand where this issue is coming from and results in a more permanent solution rather than ignoring it. For me, the deeper reason why I had these thoughts was because of my childhood, it was a result of bullying and my idolization of what a perfect girl/woman should be or look like. I found myself trying to climb up an impossible hill to meet a standard I could possibly never reach in my entire life. Take time to reflect and understand why the thoughts are there in the first place. No one wakes up and just hates themselves, something happens to make them beleive that they are worthless.

2) Deal with the issue:

After finding out what the reason is, you should find ways to deal with it. What I did is try to change my perspective on what it meant to be a perfect woman, I had to come to terms with the fact that how I look is not a reflection of who I am and understand that I am as perfect as God intended me to be. My bodily imperfections arent all I should focus on I should also focus on celebrating the best parts of me instead of hating the worst parts of me. I also looked on these verses: Ephesionas 2:10,"For we are God's masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago." and the most famous verse, Psalms 139:14, "I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well." Ecclesiastes 3:11," He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end."

3) How to deal with the issue:

First thing to do always is to bring it to God, I found myself having to go through years of this, my liitle 13 year old self thought it was best to pray for God to transform me into this beautiful being. I remember kneeling on my 13 year old knees begging God to give me beauty. Isn't that so funny? I laugh at the thought, how could I ask God for something I already have, instead I pray for God to open my eyes, forskake the idea of looking like a completely different woman to make myself feel worthy and see myself as He sees me, to finally see my worth. After time I'm starting to see myself in a new light, as a woman of value and I want whoever is reading this to know it as well, how valuable you really are. After bringing it to God, write it down in a journal, poster or whatever you can think of. I wrote different verses in a poster, I would say it everyday or whenever I can to remind myself of how God sees me and how much He loves me. I even have a poster to my wall right now of a summary of Ephesians 2 and a few quotes. We need to speak up for ourself againts our own mind, sometimes the voices seem louder, but we need to be there for ourself. I would have moments where I would be crying because of these thoughts, but I always stood up for myself using scripture, please do so yourself, this has really changed my situation.

4) This might seem so cringe, it was cringe to me too, but you have to speak to someone you know about these thoughts, it is good to always have someone who can literally drag you from the pit of your own mind. Someone who can support you during this whole journey, when you go through a bad meltdown, call someone who can be there to help you see who you truly are,a masterpiece of God. The Lord intentionally created you and you sometimes need a friend, partner or whoever to remind you of this and if you don't have anyone send me a message, contact me and I can be that person for you. I take these situations so seriously because it is something I literally had to fight to get to where I am and I'm not saying I don't have these thought, I just don't get affected as I used to because I know the Lord's truth over my life. This is a Christian growth journey so we are going throught this together.

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Thank you for reading my blog. I hope you found wisdom in this, May God bless you all. If you have any opinions or questions please contact me.